Laura,

My heart hurts so much, but deep down inside I know that Karen will find a perfect, furrrever home for him. He was finally getting used to everyone here and jumping all over the place. I called Karen (I got her voicemail) and told her how much I miss Buddy.

I also feel VERY guilty about letting Mandy go back with Freedom. Especially since she's now missing. I feel as if I hadn't let her go back, she'd still be around.

Is this a pity party or what? A mild meltdown perhaps? I don't have the answer. I only know it hurts so very much.