What I am about to say is intended to comfort you not offend you in any way.

I lost my own Mother when I was ten months old. So I really do not have any memories of her. When I came upon an old slide of her holding me, I burst into tears. I had the slide made into a print that I now have in a frame.

So really, I am terribly jealous of you - you shared so much with each other. You were able to take care of her and she of you. Yes, of course, it is very very difficult for you right now. But you have been blessed with a wonderful Mother and many many memories that you can draw upon to comfort you.

Those wonderful memories will carry you through - help you with each new day. You will always be able to remember her arms around you and how safe that felt. I am glad for you that you have had all of this in your life. I am also glad to read that she didn't suffer a great deal of pain.

She IS still with you - every second of each day - and she loves you no less - she loves you even more.

I hope each day is easier for you - but crying is such a good thing - let it all out. Your loss is huge and so very personal.

You have my comfort and prayers.