Mary you can only do your best where puddy is concerned, and i think so far you have been so wonderful, puddy is indeed a very lucky wee kitty, i hope all goes well for puddy and you can make her comfortable ,HUGS to you and puddy. take care of yourself too you know, i know you have health worries, so meowmie must make sure she is well too.

PS my vet told me it is quite common for cats with renal failure to be anaemic.

You know sometimes it does come down to money, if you can't afford it to the detriment of your own well being and the other kitties,then maybe the decision is taken out of your hands, i understand your heart is breaking over this, but take comfort in knowing just how much you have done for Puddy, and that Puddy has had a good life with you, and still can for sometime yet.