Kelly the reason you are feeling bad nearer your shift, is because you are such a loving person, that even after everything your family has put you through ,you still have compassion,something they seem truely lacking in.

I am so excited for you,please try and find that inner peace and harmony within yourself, and DONOT by any means feel even the smallest amount of guilt about leaving, you are not being ungrateful,you know they are the ones missing out in life,they should consider themselves honoured to have such a wonderful daughter,why on earth they cannot see it is beyond me.

You take much care now, and relax sweetie, times ahead are going to be good.