And I'm depressed and sad. Again. It's so quiet here, not enough laughter. This house was filled w/laughter while he was here; it created such a good vibe. Now it's quiet again. I met my girlfriends for breakfast after he left, thinking that it would take my mind off him not being here and it helped for a little while. But I've been bawling like a baby for a couple of hours now. What in the world is wrong w/me? I'm not the needy type. I've lost so many people in the last several years either through death or distance separation. I'm so lonely right now. He was home more this month than he's ever been but it's just not natural to only see your son two or three times a year. I feel like time is slipping away from me.