I only have 20 days to go! and im freaking out about EVERYTHING!!! I dont have any of Delilahs stuff here yet, its still at my parents 2 hours away, they are going to bring it once im in the hospital or before...lets hope.

I am very irritable around everyone! every little thing makes me mad and sets me off! Im either REALLY happy or REALLY crabby and taking it out on everyone around me.

im also freaking out about the pain....is it going to hurt? like what kind of pain...like pain where you havent taken a BM in 2 weeks? or pain where you chop off your legs?


I dont think i can make it another 20 days!!!! it seems wayyy to long!!


and to make it even worse the doc said im 2-3 weeks behind...but he said they will not extened the due date so thats good, im just scared that she will be unheathly and her lungs and etc wont be fully developed