Sherman's Memorial thread

[cyber-sibes]

Still trying to process all this.

We watched him grow from a lanky adolescent into a handsome strong and agile adult. He was just coming into his prime.
I know we don't get to pick what tragedies we deal with in life. My SIL is a pediatric oncologist, and sees children taken way too young far too often... (God bless her, I don't know how she does it.) But this just feels so unfair, why did it have to be him? I'm angry, I'm sad, I feel powerless, and there are a million little things I'm mad at myself and the doctors for...but, we did what we could, right or wrong, one step at a time, and ultimately, it was a horrible disease that took our sweet Sherman away from us. It wasn’t God, it wasn’t the doctors, it wasn’t neglect on our part… it was cancer.

I'm so grateful we have this board to share on, I know everyone here has (or will) go through having to say goodbye, and it always feels like it's far too soon.

To everyone praying for a miracle, thank you. I believe we got our miracle. Sherman was sick and we didn’t even know it. Who knows how long we had with him, enjoying his company in blissful ignorance, before the disease manifested so obviously? I asked the vet, he said it probably wasn’t very long, maybe a month or so that the disease went undetected. But that month was a hectic and stressful time because we were putting our house up for sale and moving nearly 800 miles. I don’t know how I could have coped with the stress of that plus knowing my boy was so ill. The miracle is that we got to enjoy most of his last days without knowing that death sentance was hanging over us.

Please keep Star in your prayers, she is very depressed. I had to take her into the vets (she's having a little pee problem) and the poor girl was in such a panic. Not like her usual self at all. She just flipped out when the white coat vet came in and they wanted to put her on the exam table. I think she thought she was never going to leave that place, just like Sherman.

She's been so very quiet since he's gone, really distracted. She's lost four pounds. The Animal Wellness essence for Grief & Loss arrived today, so maybe she'll perk up soon.