after thinking about it, and discussing it this am, both with the dogs and my human and myself, it's this... i'd get rid of the self critical voice in my head. the voice that tells me so many not true and hurtful/hateful things. the voice that tells me how unspecial, unloveable, undesirable, unworthy i am. those internalized years of critical voice has helped create a fearful, self limiting woman, who is just now starting to see how wrong that voice, and the untruths were.
sure i have some physical limitations, that prevent things, but that voice has got to go, first