I read through the whole post also.
I am sorry to hear of anyone going through so much turmoil and heartache, our family will light a candle for your lost child, and for you and your husband. I wish there was more to be said to help you with your grieving, but it is difficult to grieve, and because of that it seems to be more difficult to help a friend while they are grieving. I feel a lot of friends and family too, don't know what to say or how to help so they withdraw instead.

Our prayers, and also our altar to send you healing and happiness energy.

the Goodnows.