I am so sorry to hear that you have been depressed. I really knew nothing about this disease until a family member was treated for it. It was very very difficult for everyone in our family. I have never been depressed so at first it was hard for me to relate, but I learned. It is a chemical inbalance that is easily treated with the right meds and the right Dr. The trick is to get treatment in the beginning and not wait till it gets so bad that it takes over your life. When this family member started on meds the difference was like night and day. This is not something that you can treat yourself. If you had cancer or kidney failure all the love and good advice you get can only go so far. What you need is the right medicine and the right Dr. I wish you all the best of luck. Know that it will get better, you will once again be happy and your life will be good. Oh and yes, birth control pills can make depression worst. But usually only for the first couple of weeks although everyone is different.