Today has been another exhausting day, but I at least have some peace for the moment. I have been praying for guidance from God this entire time, and praying that He would put on my heart what was the right thing to do. Today when I left the courtroom, and returned back home, Amy Beth called me. At that moment I knew that I needed to bond her out, if only to see her baby for the holidays. I did it. I know many of you will be disappointed and not understand, but I ask you to please try to put yourself in my shoes. I felt like that if Chad had a right to now have Jenna during Christmas and not be in jail, why should my daughter not have the same? There is a good chance that either or both of them will have to serve time after their court dates ... Jenna deserves to have both her Mommy and Daddy in her life for as long as she can. I know now that his mother (Denise) is struggling as well ... she put her arms around me in the elevator today and said, "our kids really mess up, don't they?" I didn't say a word but just broke down and bawled in her arms. When the elevator door opened, I stepped out and we went our separate ways.

I just took Amy Beth back to her apartment, and her MIL (Denise) is going to bring Jenna over to visit with her. I pray that they enjoy their reunion and are blessed during their time together.

Thank you all for your continued prayers ... Cassiesmom, I appreciate your beautiful prayer here on the thread!!! You ALL mean so much to me!!! This all is far from over ... court and sentencing still lie ahead ... but for the next couple of weeks, I hope to be able to focus on the true meaning of Christmas and the Love that God has freely given to us all!

Kim