I'm sorry but I am so stinkin' disturbed by your post.
I can't take it anymore and then I checked out your myspace with your boobs hanging out and your pants unbuttoned. What the heck are you trying to attract?
you blatantly state right there on your myspace that you are desperately in love with a 42 year old man. I think you are on a path of something not good. I am not saying this guy isn't a good guy but you are opening yourself up for God knows what. Altho I think it is more disturbing that this guy is confiding in you about his marriage, family, and probably sex life.
The ick factor just went over the top.
Vela I was just wondering if you are seeing a counselor?? If you aren't I think it would be good for you. After reading some of this, I am very concerned for you.
definately - you need to RUN not WALK to a counselor and get your life sorted out.