My sweet gentle soul Scooty has died unexpectedly

[Scott]

I am so grief striken that it is hard to put into words. We all love our animals very much but every once in a while that SPECIAL animal comes into our lives - the one that connects with us on a different level, the magical ones like a soul mate - that was my Scooty. Whenever anything bad happened I could take her in my lap and all would be OK.

She was my very, very special kitty. She was my constant companion for 14 years and followed me everywhere. She was always by my side. And now she has unexpectedly gone.

She had Hyperthyroidisim and I elected to have her treated with radioactive iodine - she went through multiple tests and all looked great and she was given to OK to get the treatment. I drove her way up to Santa Cruz as there are only a few locations in California that do this procedure - it is a 3 hour drive each way and she had to stay at the hospital for a week - I picked her up this Monday and everything was great - I was told she was going to be fine as the treatment has no side effects and has a 95% cure rate. She needed to be isolated for a few weeks and I could only be with her for a half hour a day because she was still radioactive. So I would go in a pick her up and comfort her for 5 minutes every hour or so. My wife was visiting with me (we are separated) and we went in to pat her and keep her company and then we went to supper and when we came back in an hour she was lying in a pool of water and blood and was dead.

It was so shocking because I had told Scooty that all the tests and the procedures and driving had been worth it because she was going to be OK and she was going to have a great quality of life for the remainder of her years and then she died a few hours later. Completely unexpected and no one knows why - none of the doctors or specialists who saw her can give me an answer. I had to buy a cooler and ice to put her little body in because she can't be cremated for 3 months because of the procedure. I am left with my precious kitty lying in a cooler in my room while I wait for the vets office to send someone way down here from Santa Cruz.

I am devastated and I am lonely and I am so, so sad. My beautiful, sweet and gentle Scooty did not deserve this kind of ending.

She was an amazing cat - she was the light of my life and the calming force.

My heart aches.

I will always remember her - but I just don't have enough tears to cry for her.

I just don't have enough tears.

Rest in peace my dear sweet girl - I miss you so, so much. I love you and I will always love you.