I read most of the post but felt this was such an important topic.
I started drinking at a young age of 15. My parents were divorced so I had a lot of times with my friends. I admitt to myself know that I was and I guess still am an alcoholic- I havent drank in over 9 years. My Dad has been an alcholic for most of his life he is sober for about 4 years now.

Most important is that you drink responsibly. Sounds like you are a responsible person, so that is great. Many people can handle a cocktail or drink or two.

I think the problem with drinking when you have problems is that in numbs you. So it might not be the time to try it. I hate bars. I think its wierd to see the most beautiful girl walk in a bar and a few hours later- they look horrible. I know from my drinking I woke up and sobered up and I was married to a man I could not stand. Once I stopped drinking it took me years to get my self confidence back because the alcohol always made me strong and confident. I dont think I ever intended to get so heavy into drinking at the time but was what my friends where doing. Then one day woke up could not stand having hangover and stuff and quit. So if you drink think of me and never go the way I did. A old high school friend contacted me a few months ago wanted to go out and drink and said they wanted me to drink them under the table. I told them times have changed. Hence I think that label will stick with me forever. Believe me at 40+ not proud I was drunk almost half my life.

Not trying to scare you sounds like you knew all this already. What ever you do make sure you feel good about you and take care of you.
Rio&Nickysmommy