Denise you don't have to do this alone, may I ask why you have chosen not to seek counselling or at least an expert opinion? how can you know if you are an alcoholic or not if you don't, catty1 has pointed out some very good points,my ex only drank two bottles of beer a week, would you consider him an alcoholic, i think not, but he was, it depends on how it effects your life, your job, your family, just to mention a few things.

If you are an alcoholic you cannot just have one little drink, that is why you need IMO to seek expert help,please just understand i speak from experience and my pure concern for you only, not to be judgemental or anything, and i still think you are doing fantastic,but that scares me a little,because if you indeed have alcoholism, it is not something that can be beat in a week or so, i just want the best for you and hope you can achieve sobriety in your life.