Congratulations, you've just taken the first step. I'm also a recovering alcoholic - Moosmom started another thread here as a cyber AA meeting. I've been sober a little over 19 years, however I know when you're just starting to admit that you have a problem, it's hard to conceive of someone not drinking for that long, but it has been possible for me and countless others through the program of Alcoholics Anonymous. AA is listed in every phone book in the world and there are meetings everywhere.

Now that you've made the admission here, pick up the phone and find out where a meeting is close to you, go, raise your hand as a newcomer and let us show you how it is possible to live a happy life without alcohol. It's not easy. You've shown a lot of courage and strength just by posting this thread so I know you can do it.