I just have to, when Zara died Hubby said to me i could have one of the kittens, I was of course thrilled to bits and knew hubby was doing this to help me get over Zara's death, I want one so bad......but I know in my heart of hearts I cannot really afford another, it would be an awful struggle, and i have just found out Ash's dental treatment is going to cost me at least $250 dollars that i don't even have and will need to save up for, he has to come first.

It really is the hardest decision i have had to make, I am so torn between my love for the kittens and knowing i can give one a decent home, but still i also know that someone else out there can to and maybe even better because they don't have other kitties to consider, the timing just isn't right, but it is so hard as the tortie girl is exactly what my next kitty will look like, if only i were richer eh? please don't try to talk me into it, as i know it would not take much,but i just have to be strong here and say NO, because it is for the best, in a way i wished Hubby had never suggested it, but he was only trying to be kind hearted i know that, but leaving them on Sunday at the shelter is going to be even harder than before .

Melissa I have not told as she also had her heart set on keeping Tortie girl, and she would not quite understand.