Advice needed please.......re-kitten....

[carole]

I know he is probably purrfectly happy and content, it's just not seeing him being that way , that is hard.

It is just I promised myself I would not just give him to anyone, who wanted him, and I just felt pressured and put on the spot, it all happened too fast, in hindsight I wish I had just taken her phone number and said I will get back to you, if no-one claims him then you can have him, but too late now isn't it?, besides hubby probably would have been annoyed had I really done that.

I don't have bad feelings about the people, she seemed genuine enough, I just felt there were too many young kids for him, like the oldest is around 8 or 9, they may be really good with him, but it depends on how the parents are, some people let their kids do almost anything with young kittens, I guess I am putting myself through hell, just worrying needlessly, he is probably in good hands, I also realise if he had gone to the shelter adoptions, the same thing would have happened, I would never know really what kind of home he had.

I am pretty sure he was not their kitten, and we had another person lined up, which I think might have been a better home, well what I considered better, with older kids, 12 and 13 and a mother home all day, and who had plenty money to take care of him, but that was not looking as promising, they did not come and see him, and were thinking of getting a puppy, so it probably would have not worked out anyhow, still I had decided to keep him here and not take him to the shelter, and just to the adoptions, I just keep wondering should I have done that?

Oh dear this is so hard, and makes me feel miserable, so thanks for all the kind words and sensible input, I guess I am letting my heart rule my head again lol.

There was just something extra special about this little fella, I mean I loved Trinity too and cried when she left, but the hurt soon went, just feels different this time, cannot explain it, you just have a feeling about some things, know what I mean?

I just feel guilty, I feel bad about my decision, I had other options, that I should have pursued, I will never let myself be put under that kind of pressure again.,I just hope I have not done the wee fella an injustice.