I've waited until now to read this thread for a few reasons. First, I'm on so much medicine, I'm an emotional wreck and didn't want another reason to cry. I now know, that I need to deal with this loss so I"m able to get well again.

I'll miss her so greatly and fully, it hurts. I feel that with me being in the hospital and in such constant pain I had much more of a connection with my Livvy girl...it was easier for me to call Susie to help her out of pain. She doesn't deserve taht.

I got a call frm David on saturday saying he found dark vomit in her room. I called Susie and CiCi and they went to see her. They said her abdoman was really hard and they would plan on coming by when I was home to help me send her to RB. On Tuesday, daivd said she threw up frothy, white foam...a lot. Susie said she had planned on going over that night for me. I didn't know.

David took Livvy to Susie's clinic on Tuesday night after giving her some turkey. He couldn't stay, but Susie and Katy held her until it was time. I'm confident she felt loved and only hop she knew I was thinkkng about her.

Our house feels empty now. There is something missing and Iknow its not just the pain medicines.

There will always be a Livy size hole in my heart.

Thank you for you kind words. I know she'll see them and knows you all care.