I'm so sorry for all that has been happening to you I can't say that I really know what to say, and I know nothing I can say will make you feel any better Don't think of saying this as being 'a crappy thread' cause it's not! It's very serious and sometimes it helps just a little to tell people...if that is so, then I hope you post anytime you feel the need to. If you ever need someone to talk to, you know my MSN.