Christofur

**Medusa** · 11-06-2010, 04:04 PM

Originally Posted by phesina

Thank you, Mary. I so much wish I hadn't let him go so abruptly.

I know, sweetie. I feel the same way about my Boo.

**catmandu** · 11-06-2010, 05:28 PM

I think though Pat , it is about the quality of life.
I have a feeling that Christofur may have gone on having seizures and been very ill. I think that we all want our Cats to live forever , but sadly that is impossible.
I still am sadthat Joseph, Princess , Bo Bo and Moose all died at home, maybe if I had called the Vet in things would be different.
But they were suffering and it was their time to go.
I pray I see them and All Our Pet Talker and Stray Angels.
One Fine Day.

**phesina** · 11-06-2010, 07:57 PM

He was so little, and he'd hardly gotten here and he was gone.

Here he is enjoying sitting in his window seat enjoying the sunlight:

**Medusa** · 11-06-2010, 10:08 PM

Such a precious picture, Pat. Just look at the comfort and pleasure and love that he enjoyed even if only briefly.

**phesina** · 11-07-2010, 01:56 PM

I miss him so much.

I've never been hit so hard from losing a cat as I am from losing him.

**moosmom** · 11-08-2010, 04:12 PM

Pat,

I'm so sorry about Christofur. He's at the Bridge now, for what it's worth. You did EVERYTHING for him and his little body just couldn't take anymore.

RIP sweet boy! You were VERY loved!!!

**phesina** · 11-08-2010, 04:26 PM

Thank you so much, Donna.

I do hope there is something to the idea of the Afterlife and the Rainbow Bridge and all, and I'll be together with him again.. One Fine Day... what a fine day that will be!

**rg_girlca** · 11-22-2010, 02:41 PM

Pat, I am so sorry on the loss of your little sweet Christofur.

How I can relate to this. I had a sweet little 6 week old girl that I took in and after only 1 day of having her, decided I was going to keep her, but unfortunately, it wasn't meant to be. On the 5th day, she also started to have cluster seizures and it was just horrible to see this sweet little girl go through that. Thankfull she had a few hours without any and then they started up again. One after the other and each time she would come out of one, she would run around like a chicken without it's head on, not knowing what was happening to her, and then would start all over again. To make a long story short, the vet also suggested to have her PTS, because the last one almost did her in. She was so lethargic and was having trouble breathing.
Yes, we could have tried this and that, but the vet couldn't guarantee that anything would help. We decided to let her go peacefully to suffer no more. Did I feel guilty? For sure. Was I able to forgive myself? Yes I did and I pray you will also.

I'm sorry to take over your thread with this, but I just wanted to let you know that you DID do the right thing for Christofur's sake. Even though it hurts like hell to lose one of our beloved pets, no matter how short or long we have them, we just have to be thankful of the times we had with our little furry friends and keep reminding ourselves how much richer our lives were for knowing them.

Rest in Peace dear Christofur. You were so loved and will be deeply missed.

((((((HUGS)))))) Pat

**phesina** · 11-22-2010, 03:16 PM

Thank you so much, Lorraine, for your kind and loving thoughts on my loss of my dear little Christofur. I still have such sadness and regrets when i think of him. I wonder if there had been something that I could have done differently in the week I had him.

The woman I got him from gave me holy hell when she learned I had had him put down. She had given me very little information before i agreed to take him and after I got him.

I didn't really realize just how bad off he actually was. I took him right away to my regular vets to be checked out. Now I torment myself over why I didn't take him right away to the very best vets I could possibly find around here.. around the Metro Detroit area.. Southeast Michigan.. maybe the vet clinic at Michigan State U. ...

Hindsight is 20/20..

When he started having the cluster seizures, SIX different vets had seen him by that time. Every one of them thought he was in a lot worse shape than I'd been told

Since he seemed to be stabilized and resting up during the day after those seizures, I was planning to take him home the next morning. Then he started seizing again late that night. Every vet said "Let him go now. He won't even ever be back the way he was. He will be suffering if he's kept alive longer." He's been medicated and monitored all day, and he still starting seizing again." I finally agreed to it.

Right away I thought I'd done the right thing. The next day I started having doubts, and since then I've been in deep remorse and pain about all of it.

God bless you, sweet little Christofur. Please stay by me and meet me at the Bridge... One Fine Day.

Thanks again, Lorraine and all of you whose kind thoughts have helped to soothed my soul.

**cassiesmom** · 11-22-2010, 03:37 PM

Originally Posted by Rev. Billy Graham

“God will prepare everything for our perfect happiness in heaven, and if it takes my dog being there, I believe he'll be there.”

Hope this helps,
Elyse

**rg_girlca** · 11-22-2010, 03:52 PM

Pat please, there was absolutely nothing more that you, the vets or I, could have done for these precious babies. As for that so called lady who gave you Christofur in the first place and then blasted you for having him PTS, the HELL with her. IMO, she gave you Holy Hell to cover up the guilt she was feeling for giving you a sick kitty in the first place. This is how some people cover up their lies and guilt, by yelling at you and making it look like it was your fault. She knew something was more wrong with him and that's why she gave you very little information on him. If every vet said that he was in worse shape then you've been told, then where does the fault lie??? Definitely NOT on you, but on the lady who gave him to you.

So please, try and rid yourself of your doubts and guilt. It was NOT your fault. Remember, you DID the right thing by NOT letting little Christofur suffer any longer. I'm glad that you took him in, because God knows how long this sweet boy would have suffered if he had stayed with that woman.
Remember that.

Of course your are in pain on the loss of sweet Christofur, it's only normal. Like I said, it doesn't matter how short or long of a time we have them for.
I cried liked a baby for days on the loss of my little girl and still miss her to this day and that was back in Oct. 2009. Remember, everyone has their own path to healing and their own timetable for grieving. Grief is as individual as each person. There are no hard and fast rules.
Here's a picture of my little girl, who at the time was named, Miss kitty, I like to share with you.

May the healing begin for you soon Pat.

((((((HUGS))))))

**phesina** · 11-22-2010, 06:18 PM

Originally Posted by cassiesmom

Hope this helps,
Elyse

Thank you so much, Elyse. That is so sweet of you to post that. I hope very much that you and Billy Graham are right.

**phesina** · 11-22-2010, 06:25 PM

Originally Posted by rg_girlca

Pat please, there was absolutely nothing more that you, the vets or I, could have done for these precious babies. As for that so called lady who gave you Christofur in the first place and then blasted you for having him PTS, the HELL with her. IMO, she gave you Holy Hell to cover up the guilt she was feeling for giving you a sick kitty in the first place. This is how some people cover up their lies and guilt, by yelling at you and making it look like it was your fault. She knew something was more wrong with him and that's why she gave you very little information on him. If every vet said that he was in worse shape then you've been told, then where does the fault lie??? Definitely NOT on you, but on the lady who gave him to you.

So please, try and rid yourself of your doubts and guilt. It was NOT your fault. Remember, you DID the right thing by NOT letting little Christofur suffer any longer. I'm glad that you took him in, because God knows how long this sweet boy would have suffered if he had stayed with that woman.
Remember that.

Of course your are in pain on the loss of sweet Christofur, it's only normal. Like I said, it doesn't matter how short or long of a time we have them for.
I cried liked a baby for days on the loss of my little girl and still miss her to this day and that was back in Oct. 2009. Remember, everyone has their own path to healing and their own timetable for grieving. Grief is as individual as each person. There are no hard and fast rules.
Here's a picture of my little girl, who at the time was named, Miss kitty, I like to share with you.

May the healing begin for you soon Pat.

((((((HUGS))))))

Thank you, Lorraine, for your loving message and all your good and kind thoughts and wishes.

And thank you so much for the picture of your darling little girl Miss Kitty. I would have cried like a baby at her abrupt passing as you did too. I cried at Christofur's passing. God bless you for loving her so much and giving her so much.

You and your vets and my vets must all be all right: There is no way either of these beloved babies would have come through such seizures none the worse for wear. My vets also strongly suspected there was brain damage here (before the seizures) and he probably wouldn't be around for long.

And the cluster seizure story to end them all: My sister's partner Helen told me about a young man who used to work with her. He had a seizure disorder and would occasionally get into cluster seizures. He told Helen and his other coworkers that every time these happened, each specific seizure in a series was more painful and frightening than the last. Finally he told his family: The next time I go into cluster seizures, DO NOT RESUSCITATE ME. And it finally happened, and they respected his wishes, and he is now up there with Christofur and Miss Kitty.

Miss Kitty and Christofur (and Helen's coworker too) are whole and healthy and happy now, and they are looking forward to welcoming us home.. One Fine Day for each of us..

Thanks again, and love,
Pat

**kitten645** · 11-22-2010, 11:07 PM

Absolutely and exactly Pat. You couldn't have done more. It's not fair and very sad but you did what you could and the rest just plays itself out. Hugs to you. You are far braver than I could be. Namaste.

**phesina** · 11-23-2010, 06:22 PM

Originally Posted by kitten645

Absolutely and exactly Pat. You couldn't have done more. It's not fair and very sad but you did what you could and the rest just plays itself out. Hugs to you. You are far braver than I could be. Namaste.

Thank you so much, kitten645. I so much appreciate your kind and comforting and loving thoughts. I wish I had done all that might have been possible for him. (Maybe nothing was.)

Thanks again, and love,
Pat