Sherman's Memorial thread

[cyber-sibes]

I can't believe it's only two months since Sherman left us. I am so down today, feeling really depressed. I still feel such an aching in my heart. It feels like he's been gone for years instead of months. He died way too young. He should have been here for at least another ten years. (IMO, not God's, obviously). I know, it's not good or nice or polite to be angry at God, but I am, I'm plain ticked about it. I'll probably come back & edit this part out later, but that's how I'm feeling: &
That's all, just need to vent today I guess.

My sweet boy, we never guessed that you be gone within weeks of these photos, Star & JoJoe & I miss you more than words can say.

[anna_66]

Pat I do know how you feel.

Being angry and sad just about sums up how I felt when my RB Keisha died. So I personally don't feel you should edit your post. How you feel is how you feel.
One day the feeling will be different, but the wound is still so fresh.

My heart goes out to you.
(((HUGS)))
Anna

[pitc9]

{{{HUGS}}} to you Pat!
JoJo & Star too.
If it makes you feel better, I want him back too!

[cassiesmom]

[[[[[[HUGS]]]]]] thinking of you today

[dukedogsmom]

You shouldn't have to edit out your feelings. I know exactly how you feel. There will be parts of you that will always miss him. I'm really sorry that you didn't have more happy years with him. You're right, it doesn't seem fair. Come back here as often as you like. I know it makes me feel better when I write in Duke's thread. It's like you can still keep the connection to them open for a little longer, you know?

[DrKym]

I am just now seeing this thread! Omg Pat I am so so so sorry! you must be devastated!

Sherman Please watch over your amazing Mom..................I cannot tell you how much you will be missed.

Pat all of my thoughts and prayers if I can do anything at all please let me know!

All our love the Goodnows and Doc

[lizbud]

Pat,

((Hugs)) from Indy. I've read this poem so often after Buddy's passing
and it did help me a lot.It captures my thoughts about losing even that tangible memory to remind you that they were once here. I've decided
that this loss only carves their name deeper into your heart. Liz.


YOU WERE HERE

As I sit in those moments of quiet,
When sadness invades me,
I know that yesterday,
You were here.

Now you are away from us,
Not knowing your future,
Or when you'll come home, but yesterday,
You were here.

It has now been a week,
A week since you last were in the house,
An entire week since we carried you away,
To the place where we did not know your future,
But just last week,
You were here.

Another day passes;
a week ago, you were still with us,
In daily reports from the clinic,
They did not know your future,
But we could still hope, and,
You were here.

More days pass,;
A week ago you left us,
Your head cradled in our hands,
Your spirit gracefully moving upward,
But for a few hours of that day,
You were here.

Sadness invades again,
As I know that once those hours pass,
I can no longer look back,
Over the span of a familiar week's time,
To find that comforting point when,
You were here.

More time will pass;
Sadness will not so much invade as menace,
And I will mark the days,
Saying things like,
"last month, last summer, last Halloween, last year,"
You were here.

I dread that day,
One year from now,
That first marking of the time,
That your body was no longer with us;
Though we will never forget you,
Your tangible memory fades,
The feel of your fur, your head, your back, your weight against us,
The smell and sounds of you when,
You were here.

The emptiness is beginning to fade,
To change into another reality,
One with you still playing a part,
But a role of ethereal presence rather than physical comfort we crave;
Your memory, your spirit, your essence and counsel,
Dwell with us, but this feeling is not the same as when,
You were here.


Author: Jenine Stanley
Copyright (c) Jenine Stanley, 1999

[cyber-sibes]

Thanks for all of your words of understanding. It's been a long and very melancholy day. I've been looking through this thread at the gifts of words you posted, looking at his pictures, all through tears. Liz, I cried all the way through that beautiful tender poem.... that is exactly how it is.
I read the thread about Tango this morning, and my heart just breaks that yet another PT sweetheart is mysteriously ill, with an uncertain future. They are with us for such a short time... much too short a time.

[crow_noir]

People say the pain lessens over time. I'm not so sure about that anymore. Sometimes it did for some loved ones i lost. Sometimes it's just that my brain forgets. So far for King it has been totally untrue. After the first month or so the pain hasn't got any less for me. I still randomly sob my eyes out and my nose gets soaked right off my face from being so mushy. I still randomly blurt out "I want King back." Other days my brain totally forgets he's not here and i ask where he is... and it hurts all over again as it washes back over me. (and it's been over a year now.)

Sometimes we love someone so deeply that it never stops hurting.

I've long since gotten over my terrier's death. I've long since been OK with my budgies gone... though i do sometimes get a bit lonely for feathered company. I miss my aunt and regret my father never let me spend more time with her. So on and so forth. One of my best friend's death still haunts me, but it is because he never received justice. King however... it is a loss more deep to me than anything i can describe.

Sometimes we love someone so deeply that it never stops hurting.

I see this being true for you with Sherman. It may not be comforting to hear that, but i hope that it is comforting to know that if you do feel that way that it's not crazy and others won't think less of you. That you are not alone in grieving deeply.

[dukedogsmom]

Crow, it's like that for me, as well. One of my cousins was talking about her cat that had gone off to die. She said she thought she knew where the RB was located. I told her to tell me so I could bring back Duke It'll be a year for me in two months and it hurts almost as much as it did that very day. If I knew where the RB was, I'd bring them all back to us.

Cyber, sorry for the small hijiack and I, too, hope I didn't make you even more sad.

[gini]

I have been where you are - and I understand. I wish that I had just the right words to make you feel better - but I don't.

Why do we get to love a pet so unconditionally and then have it taken away.
It is a mystery of life that we don't have an answer for right now.

I feel your pain and I am sorry.

[Cinder & Smoke]

Dance, Sherman, Dance

The air is cooler, leaves turn red and gold, like your coat.
Crisp leaves dance in the air and on the ground across our path...
you always loved Fall.

Dance in the light, Sherman, dance in the light.
Shine in the Northern sky, shine true and bright.
Shine on our days, and shine on our nights,
You shine in our memories of what you were like.
Shine on these gray days, shine deep in our heart,
Shine here forever, and never depart.

There are no words to express how deeply you are missed,
Dearest Sherman.

With All Our Love,
/s/ Mom & Dad


Author: Pat St. Onge
Copyright Pat St. Onge, 2007
Source: Cyber-Sibes Husky Blog

[kallisto4529]

All I can say is all of us totally understand every tear, every bit of anger, every bit of emotion you feel or you need to vent about. We would never judge how you feel. I too was very angry with God at first when I lost Mousse. Dont get me wrong I loved Ginger very much, but I have come to realize Mousse was my heart dog, he was my child that I can not physically have, and when he was taken from me so suddenly I really thought I would go insane with the grief of it. This Christmas Eve will be three years since he went to the RB, it still haunts me to this day and I miss him every day I take a breath. Just please know we are all here for you and you can say anything you need to, in order to get your emotions out and be able to heal some. God Bless you, you will continue to be in my prayers and thoughts.

[4 Dog Mother]

I was re-reading this thread, Pat, and realized I never responded to it. I did read it and I guess I had no words to add to what was being said. Plus, this has been such a crazy time with Brian getting ready to deploy, Christy and the kids getting ready to move in plus my unknown illness. Rob died two years ago in July so we were also trying hard to get his stone ready to go on before that date.

It is also was so hard for me because every loss reminds me of the loss of Rob. So sudden, no real answers, the anger at God (and by the way, it is all right to be angry at God - he understands) and the deep, deep hurt and pain that really never goes away. Most of us think of our pets as our "kids" so while Rob may have been my human child and while I meaing me personally would have rather have lost one of the dogs than my son, both losses are just that losses filled with hurt, pain and anger. We have lost a part of ourselves that can never be filled by another and shouldn't be - we have lots of love in us and we need to remember our loved ones.

My thoughts and prayers were with you then and remain with you now. Diana

[Dorothy39]

Oh gee Pat!!! I feel your loss , yet I've stayed away from the memorial thread~ Oh My, Please Forgive me , my PT friend~ It's soooo hard for me to click here!!!!

I haven't forgotton your Dear Sherman!!!!