Advice needed please.......re-kitten....

[carole]

I know he is probably purrfectly happy and content, it's just not seeing him being that way , that is hard.

It is just I promised myself I would not just give him to anyone, who wanted him, and I just felt pressured and put on the spot, it all happened too fast, in hindsight I wish I had just taken her phone number and said I will get back to you, if no-one claims him then you can have him, but too late now isn't it?, besides hubby probably would have been annoyed had I really done that.

I don't have bad feelings about the people, she seemed genuine enough, I just felt there were too many young kids for him, like the oldest is around 8 or 9, they may be really good with him, but it depends on how the parents are, some people let their kids do almost anything with young kittens, I guess I am putting myself through hell, just worrying needlessly, he is probably in good hands, I also realise if he had gone to the shelter adoptions, the same thing would have happened, I would never know really what kind of home he had.

I am pretty sure he was not their kitten, and we had another person lined up, which I think might have been a better home, well what I considered better, with older kids, 12 and 13 and a mother home all day, and who had plenty money to take care of him, but that was not looking as promising, they did not come and see him, and were thinking of getting a puppy, so it probably would have not worked out anyhow, still I had decided to keep him here and not take him to the shelter, and just to the adoptions, I just keep wondering should I have done that?

Oh dear this is so hard, and makes me feel miserable, so thanks for all the kind words and sensible input, I guess I am letting my heart rule my head again lol.

There was just something extra special about this little fella, I mean I loved Trinity too and cried when she left, but the hurt soon went, just feels different this time, cannot explain it, you just have a feeling about some things, know what I mean?

I just feel guilty, I feel bad about my decision, I had other options, that I should have pursued, I will never let myself be put under that kind of pressure again.,I just hope I have not done the wee fella an injustice.

[NoahsMommy]

You poor thing!!! (((((((Carole))))))))

I can't say I know what you're going through...I'm a huge failure when it comes to fostering. But, I can see the pain you are going through and I'm so sorry for that.

He has a good home...those people seemed nice to you and I'm sure they are. If there was any doubt, I KNOW you would have said anything to not let them take him. You did the right thing and he'll be OK.

What about calling them to check on him? Maybe that would put your mind at ease?

Lot of love,
Kelly

[anna_66]

Carole, I'm so sorry to hear you are still feeling so bad for letting him go, but I'm sure he's going to be fine. So please try not to worry.

{{{{{HUGS}}}}}
Anna

[carole]

I did check on him two hours after he left, I could not wait any longer, she said he was settling in well, I still think about him a lot and just hope he is happy and well taken care of,the children will all be back at school as holidays are over and the mother also works, so I hope he is not too lonely, one of the children could be a pre-schooler, hard to tell, so maybe someone is there some of the time, as long as they don't let him out too soon, he should be indoors until he is grown, but I wonder if that will be the case, I guess I just have to trust that I did do the right thing for him.

I am feeling somewhat better about it all today, life must go on, but I still miss the wee dearie, and wish he could have stayed, I have his pic on my background, and it hurts to see his beautiful face, but I just have to have him there if ya know what I mean.

If by some chance he ends up being returned to me, he will be staying, but some how I doubt that very much, they seem real happy with him, well who wouldn't be, he is such a stunner to look at, and with his purrsonality to match, they have got a real treasure, I sure hope they appreciate that.

[jazzcat]

Carole - I'm sorry it didn't work out just like you hoped but I'm sure he will be okay. Sounds like you got very attached to him.

I resized a few of his pictures and will post them here. Hope that is okay with you.







He's sure is adorable!

[carole]

Oh thanks heaps, I so wanted those pics to be smaller, I have no idea how or if I can do that on my computer, yep I was totally in love with this little guy, and I still feel empty inside now that he is gone, but time is a great healer, I sure hope he is happy too. Isn't he just the cutest.?

[Vette]

Oh my goodness! what big ears he has.
i can see why you feel for him so.


but yes.. time has a way of healing up the ole heart. takes a whie though.. but untill then hang in there.. *hugs*

feel free to PM me if you need anything.

Fritz qued me in on to clear out my over flowing inbox

[carole]

Thanks, I think it is just the picture, his ears were pretty normal for his age.

I feel even worse, the lady across the road asked after him, and said she would have taken him, she hinted before, but because she was heading overseas for a few weeks in a few weeks, thought it not a good idea, she has four other kitties, and was not sure her hubby would allow her another, and whether he would get on with them, she never really made it clear to me, and did not come back over to say she would definitely have him.

If only I had waited a bit longer, he could have had a good home with her, and we could have seen him as often as we would have liked..

I was already feeling stink about it all, now I feel even worse. I just have to hope he is doing well and is happy.