Some thoughts... (and "special bond" pics)

**Kirsten** · 06-05-2006, 11:11 AM

Maybe you have noticed that I wasn't around much lately. One reason was that I had to work a lot, but I also have to admit that I'm not feeling well these days. It's my job situation that's depressing me; there's a bad atmosphere in the office lately, a lot of pressure, and I don't know how to interpret the entire situation, and I fear I may lose my job sooner or later. If that's the case, I'm ruined.

I fear the future very much because I have no one to back me up, I'm all alone here with my girls. Could be that I'm just burned out at the moment, I really need a break and hope I can take the next week off.

When I lose my job, I would lose my apartment, too, and I wouldn't know if I could keep the girls in such a case. New jobs are hard to find in Germany these years. I think it would be easy to rehome Lily, but what would become of Luna? Nobody would adopt a cat with constant bladder problems, that's peeing and pooping outside the litter box and that needs permanent medical treatment. However, it would break my heart to give my girls up, they are the most important thing in my life.

Six years to the day, I brought Luna home, and I often wonder what would have become of her if somebody else but me would have adopted her. Would she get a proper treatment, or would she have been abandoned or dropped at the shelter when her peeing problems began? I know that not everyone would have the patience I have, people tell me that all the time. But I love her very very much and would never give her up.

Luna and I really have a special bond. Today, at her Gotcha Day, I took some pictures of us. I hope they show how much we love each other:

Now I apoligize for this more or less pointless post, but I'm just so depressed and burned out these days, and mentally and physically exhausted....

Kirsten

**catlover4ever** · 06-05-2006, 12:23 PM

(((HUGS))) Kirsten, I hope all will turn out OK for you. Sounds like the office is really burning you out and getting to you.....I know that feeling all to well with the office I work in.

I love the pictures that you posted of you and Luna....how very, very special. I especially love the last one of Luna.....looks like she has the biggest smile on her face...such contentment.

Cheer up, take some time off and just let your two wonderful girls give you all the love and attention that you deserve. (((HUGS))) Meg

**Kirsten** · 06-05-2006, 01:33 PM

Thank you! I'm sorry that you experience the same in your office!

I used to love my job, but things there have changed so much lately.

Kirsten

**jenluckenbach** · 06-05-2006, 01:49 PM

I feel very badly that your work situation is so terrible. A person spends a good deal of time at their job and to feel nothing but displeasure IS depressing. You will constantly be in my prayers for a brighter future.

The photos are fabulous!!!

**catnapper** · 06-05-2006, 01:56 PM

Kirsten, I am sorry to hear that things haven't picked up since last you spoke of work

I know there's something better out there for you and wish you all the best luck in finding it soon!

On a postive note, I can really see just how much Lady Luna loves her meowmie. She's a gorgeous little girl and yes, she deserves all the love and care you give her.

**Kirsten** · 06-05-2006, 02:17 PM

Thank you, Jen and Kim!

It's true, Luna and Lily are a huge comfort. I wouldn't know what to do without these little fur kids.

Kirsten

**Beauty55** · 06-09-2006, 09:34 AM

So sorry you are feeling so depressed. I know so well how having a bad job can make life miserable - I am stuck in one. I cannot afford to quit because I have to be able to pay household bills. I love the pictures of Luna with her eyes closed in what looks like bliss or total love.

**Kirsten** · 06-10-2006, 05:17 AM

Thank you for your support everyone!

Sonia, this little furry gang is so cute, they look like wonderful friends!

Beauty55, I'm sorry that you're going through the same. Looks like this is many people's fate these days.

Johanna, thank you for your kinds words. Right now, I'm feeling so useless and numb, and it's not easy to keep in mind that there are things I may be good at.

I may not post very often here, but this place means a lot to me and can be such a tremendous source of comfort and support!

Thanks,
Kirsten

**orangemm** · 06-10-2006, 06:17 AM

Remember Kirsten, it is always darkest before the dawn. I know it's small comfort to you, but sometimes it really is true.

It's hard, but stand up for yourself, be strong, and never forget we are here for you. PLEASE don't let others bring you down. You are worth far more than that.

And, listen to Gary...he, along with others here, have been through it, too.

**catfamily** · 06-10-2006, 07:18 AM

I'm so very sorry for all the troubles in your life right now.Do you have family?Any family worth going to for help?Do you know anyone here in the USA to stay with?You could bring the cats with you to a friend or family member outside Germany?Quarentine is 6 months indoors to whereever you go outside of Germany.
You must have a friend to help you in Germany.I hope.
I only say outside Germany because you wrote how hard it is to find work there,so I was hoping you had family or friends elsewhere to start.Or it would be much better to just really ask around town if there's ANYthing for work until you can get something your happy with.I feel so bad.Loosing your apartment is bad enough...but the thought of loosing your cats is devistating I'm sure.I hope things look up soon Kirsten.
Anytime you need me you can call on me.
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**Sonia59** · 06-13-2006, 04:10 AM

Originally Posted by Kirsten

this little furry gang is so cute, they look like wonderful friends!

Yes they are! Last week I posted some movies about them. I don't know if you have seen them. Here they are: http://petoftheday.com/talk/showthread.php?t=105923 They are so cute and funny, they will bring a big smile on your face, for sure

I think migrating to another country would be difficult, even though many Germans consider to do so these days. The job situation is really bad here now. It's a bit better in the south of Germany, and I may have to get used to the thought to move there. My sister is already living there, and two friends of mine (in the area of Stuttgart/Black Forest). But it would be a tough decision.

It's not easy but more and more frequent. Sometimes you have to do it. I have been working in The Netherlands for more than 3 years now, and I can't find a good job to come back to France! I am traveling back home every week-end. At the beginning I had a two-year contractin the Netherlands, and now it turned to a permanent contract. It's very nice of course, but it makes it even more difficult to find something equivalent in my country. Up to now, I did not find

It's a pity that other countries can offer you what your country cannot.

**Russian Blue** · 06-13-2006, 08:11 AM

So sorry to hear your troubles Kristen. Have you thought about going back to school to upgrade your training or start your own business? It seems you enjoy website design and photography. Does your country offer assistance for home based business? Or how about going to a career counsellor to see what options you may have?

I can imagine how hard this must be because you are the sole provider. There's always something better waiting for you...you just have to find an alternative path to get there.

Remember, positive thoughts bring positive actions.

I quit my job because of a very harsh work environment. Right now I'm working part-time until something better comes along and also I'm thinking of going back to school. Who knows, I may even start a side business since I've had some offers recently.