Perkins...
Hello Everyone,
My name is Amanda. On Friday (19th) I had to put my cat Perkins (who was cat of the day on March 2, 2004) to sleep...
It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do, I loved him more than anything in the world. At the beginning of the month my Mom and I noticed Perkins had lost a lot of weight, wasn't eating as much as usual and had very little energy. We took him to the Vet not hoping it would be anything serious...we were wrong. The Vet said he was dehydrated, under-weight, then she listened to his heart she said it sounded bad it was all irregular. She gave us some antibiotics for him, hoping it would help. Then my Mom asked what were his chances? The Vet said it was hard to say, but he didn't look good. He could live as short as 6 months...but no longer than 5 years.
When I got home I cried my eyes out. The thought of losing my baby, my one and only cat absolutley crushed me...After he was on the antibiotics he was starting to look a little bit better but no huge improvement. I was so afriad, not knowing what would happen. As Wednesday approached we knew he was fading on us. We wouldn't touch his food or water...all he did was sleep. We tried so hard to get him to eat but he just didn't have the strength in him. It even hurt him to be picked up and held because he was so thin. The next day...we was worse...no change. Then Friday morning...my Mom came in my room and woke me up. She told me she had to talk to me about something...of course right away I knew it was Perkins. She said that when she let him upstaires this morning he couldn't even climb the staires...the spark of life in his eyes was gone. I cried my eyes out...knowing what we had to do...I tried to compose myself as I walked over to my darling boy who was curled up in his bed. He looked so sad...Mom called the vet and booked an appointment...As I sat next to him I told him so many things, I told him how much I loved him, how I would miss him, I thanked him for coming into our lives and for so many things. Just before we left I sang him the song I sang to him when he was a baby..."You Are My Sunshine". Oh how I didn't want my Sunshine taken away...
We left...
At the Vet the moment I walked into the office I burst into tears as I held him closely. My Mom and stroked him and talked to him for the last time. Then the Vet opened the door and we took him into the back room. He told us the procedure and asked if we wanted to stay with him while the euthanized him...we did. The injected the needle as we stroked him....he was gone in seconds. My baby was gone...
We brought him home and buried him in the backyard with some of his special toys...
It's only been almost 3 days since he passed away...life is so strange without him. The house is so quiet...especially at dinner time. A huge chunk of my heart is gone...I feel so helpless...I wish so much that we could have saved him. But I feel somewhat at peace...knowing he is out of pain and not suffering...I also feel lucky that I was warned about how he may not make it and that I was able to spend a lot of quality time with him in his last week. I hope that someday I can see him again. Not a day will go by in my life where I don't think of my wonderful cat Perkins, he was wonderful cat. I am so thankful to God that he was in my life. He brought so much happiness and laughter into our household.
I'm hoping that in the near future I will get another cat, but at this point it doesn't like that will be happening for a while. My Mom isn't too keen on it. I think it might help my grieving, but maybe not. I don't know. :P Thank you for listening. All you cat lovers who have cats, please today give your cat an extra hug or kiss....in memory of Perkins.
Perkins
May. 15, 1995 - March. 19, 2004
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