Oh I am so sad right now. My heart is breaking in two. I just went to feed my birdies tonight...I can't even type this. My Azure-birdie was on the bottom of the cage. I just can't even believe it. I played with them a bit last night, and he was happy & chirpy & eating. I did notice a dark spot on his beak for the past few days, but didn't think too much of it. I wonder now if he was sick and I didn't even notice. I feel so guilty for not being there. I'm just crying so much right now...and it's a sadness that Mark can't really enter into. I feel so alone. He was my little buddy...my little bird that helped me through a major depression a few years ago. When the rest of the world crashed around me, he would sing and say "I love you" no matter what. He was so funny, he could make me laugh at his silly antics. I was told by an "expert" that I would never ever tame him because he was too old. But Azure was the one to tame me...to teach me the patience of sitting quietly until he was ready to climb on my finger.

Azure, I'm so sorry for not being there for you. I miss you so much my buddy. I'm going to miss your cheerful chirps and your silly antics.

I'm crying so hard I have to go. Thank you, Pettalk for listening. I know that here, there are people who understand that this "wasn't just a bird." Thank you so much for understanding.