Ash's time has come.....

**carole** · 02-10-2010, 05:17 PM

With great sadness i have to tell you, that on saturday Ash is booked in at the vets 1pm, i will be having him Put to Sleep,unless by some miracle my ole fella does a turn around, this is why i have given him until then, hoping that it will happen, he has done this before, but this time is different, i know in my heart his time is up and it would be cruel of me to let him keep going as he is.

He made a sharp decline three days ago, and so far there is no improvement,I may even have to go sooner if things get worse.

Please keep us in your thoughts, this is the hardest decision i have ever had to make, and it hurts very much, I have had a long time to prepare myself, but still it is extremely hard to do. I dreaded even making the phone call for the appointment, and they were booked out, but made an exception, and it will be my favourite vet Gabe who knows Ash well, that helps, i was shaking making that call, and now i cannot stop those tears flowing, and that awful lump in your throat you get, i don't know how on earth i am going to manage on the day, i will be an emotional mess.

I know many of you have traveled this unpleasant and tough road, so will understand how i am feeling, sick to the stomach, would sum it up nicely, a few sleepless nights and unhappy days ahead for sure, but it is time for my ole fella to be at peace now.

**Catty1** · 02-10-2010, 05:25 PM

Carole, I am so so so sorry...you have stuck by Ash every bit of the way, and done everything you could.

Prayers and good thoughts going to you and sweet Ash. You and he will always have the love you share.

{{{{hugs}}}}

You might want to crosspost this to Cat General, so others can support you here.

**carole** · 02-10-2010, 05:33 PM

Thank you for your kind words candace, I still am holding on to a bit of hope as you do, but i can see he has given up the battle, and i guess that is his way of telling me enough now mum, let me go,well i have to tell myself that anyhow,if only to help me feel a little better.

I am so dreading this weekend, it is gonna be so darn hard.

Could you please crosspost it for me, i have no idea how, and cannot think quite straight right now.

This is going to be very hard on my Melissa too, she adores Ash, they have quite a special bond, he has never ever scratched her, me plenty of times, and she was the one who brought him to me when she was about 8 yrs old,thanks to her and Ash i discovered i could tolerate kitties, even though i have an allergy to them, had missed out on the love of kitties for many years until Ash arrived and the rest his history.

She thinks he can keep going, but i know he can't.

**caseysmom** · 02-10-2010, 05:37 PM

I will pray that Ash will make a sharp turnaround and you can cancel your appointment, but if not you are doing the right thing.

**Medusa** · 02-10-2010, 05:39 PM

Praying for a miracle here, Carole. What you have to do is really tough but the right thing, as you know. Keep the faythe.

**carole** · 02-10-2010, 05:43 PM

Yes i know I have to do the right thing by him, it is not fair for him to suffer on , and i believe he is now suffering, he was not before,he has had enough i can tell, poor ole guy.

**Taz_Zoee** · 02-10-2010, 06:30 PM

I know exactly how you are feeling, as do many of us here. The lump in your throat, the ache in your heart. The doubt of if it is actually the right time and right thing to do. I still have those doubts about Taz and he's been gone for 7 months now. I know I did the right thing, but it doesn't make it any easier.
I am going through those emotions right now with you again. Tears, tight chest, shaking hands.

Hugs to you from this side of the world.

**caseysmom** · 02-10-2010, 06:35 PM

I felt that way about my RB gigi for a long long time, I guess its just natural to feel that way. In hindsight now I know I did the right thing.

**Marigold2** · 02-10-2010, 06:42 PM

I am so sorry for your worry and pain. Such a painful decision we have to make for those fur children who love. Sending hugs and hoping that you and Ash find peace together in your love for each other.

**Cataholic** · 02-10-2010, 07:09 PM

I am so sorry to hear this. Spend these days loving Ash, and remembering his special ways. Hugs to you.

**Catherinedana** · 02-10-2010, 07:11 PM

Originally Posted by Medusa

Praying for a miracle here, Carole.

We all are, Carole. But I think the miracle happened when you and Ash met and he became a part of your life. He will always be with you, you know that. And our hearts are with you too.

Much love,
Cathy

**Pembroke_Corgi** · 02-10-2010, 07:18 PM

I'm so sorry.

I will keep you and your beloved cat Ash in my thoughts.

**Prairie Purrs** · 02-10-2010, 07:18 PM

I'm so sorry. I know that horrible knot in the stomach all too well. But when they're ready to say goodbye, we have to honor that, even when it breaks our hearts in pieces.

You and Ash will be in my thoughts.

**phesina** · 02-10-2010, 07:20 PM

Oh Carole, I'm so sorry to read this.

You and Ash have been through so much together, shared so much life and love. I know you are cherishing the time you have together with him, as he is doing with you. May God grant you both peace and comfort.

Love and hugs to you and your family, Carole, and gentle pets to dearest Ash,
Pat