Well. I think I should finally announce to the whole world what my issue is now.

My parents are taking "a break".

My mom has an apartment now, and we (Jake and I) will split our time between my mom's and my dad's. They are promising that this isn't a divorce, and all I know is it better not be because as mad/sad as I already am, a divorce would kill me.

My mom claims she's leaving for a while because she needs to think things through. CAN'T SHE DO THAT HERE??? Why waste more money on a whole apartment that we can't afford in the first place. My dad's devestated, he did nothing to cause this, he's just sad my mom's leaving for a while. And the lease is for 6 months so she needs to stay there a minimum of 6 months. All I know is this better not be dragged out over my dad's birthday, vacation, either of our birthdays, or Christmas or ANY holiday. GRRRRRRRRRRRR!

I feel so helpless. I want to just run away or something. Bawl my eyes out... anything, I'm just so confused and scared and worried that nothing worse comes from this situation. I don't know anymore.

My mom is asking me if I want to stay home on Friday to help her pack. *sigh* Can this get any worse? I think I will though, just because I want to see her before she leaves. She then said she will take me shopping to get stuff for my "own" bathroom. Spend more FRICKEN money why don'tcha???

I'm just scared. My dad has to pay all the bills now. I'm so scared. I don't know, I don't know, I DON'T KNOW.

I hate having to divide my time between my parents. I would want to stay with my dad because he did NOTHING to deserve to lose his kids. I'm SO MAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!