what next....had a fall..
most of you will know i injured my shoulder rather badly five months ago, i am still in rehab having physio every week, and the improvement despite all that, doing my daily exercises and a steroid injection has been minimal, but never the less there has been progress and i was just starting to feel i had turned the corner when STUPID me did something dumb.
i was in the kitchen, i had pulled out the bottom drawer of the oven to get a dish out, and normally i would push it in, for some reason i got distracted and decided to make us a yoghurt smoothie with our dinner,BIG BIG Mistake, my blender is in the tight corner in the kitchen, and you guessed it i simply forgot the drawer was open, which it should not have been had i remembered to shut it straight away like i normally would, and yep i ended up splat on the floor, i knicked the side of the draw with my leg, and have two lovely bruises to show for it, and landed mostly on my hip, which is my bad hip, but was the pain there , oh no it was in my shoulder, it brought me to tears, i did land rather hard and i guess i am lucky i did not do more damage, but still this is not what i need right now, i think the jarring did something to my shoulder, it is again more painful than it has been and stiffer again, i am not due to have physio for three weeks as she is on holiday and felt i would be ok without it, but i think i will have to re book with the other girl.
To say i am devastated is an under statement, i have worked my butt off to get myself better and i just cannot believe i have done something so silly to jeopardize my recovery.
I blame my short term memory, since my small op two months ago, my memory has not been the same, it was pretty bad straight afterwards, and has gotten better, but i normally would not forget to do these things.
Then today i am doing my pulley exercises and bang the muscle in my left shoulder goes ping, and i am in pain with that now, more so than my shoulder, that is due to fibromyalgia, i have been lucky not to have that happen for some time, but yep it has to happen now doesn't it, those with fibro will know what i am talking about, it locks that muscle in, and it hurts to even breathe.
Yep i am totally fed up with myself right now,sorry to vent, but it helps,just want to be back to normal, what ever that is, i may well have to start all over again, and then will that be enough to finally rid me of this ongoing pain and disability, because that is what it has become, i am limited as to what i can do these days ,and i am right handed so it is the pitts,i don't feel it will ever be the same again, i just hope i have not torn the tendon again, or made the tear bigger, fingers crossed, thanks for listening.
P.S on the bright side i did not break any bones , i have some good padding there obviously that helped lol.
