Yesterday afternoon I helped my best friend, my soul mate, my companion & my everything take his final journey... to the heavens above, the great rainbow bridge. It was for sure the hardest decision of my life but my boy was ready and he let me know.
This is also for sure the most difficult time in my life... ever. There is so much to say, It all happened so fast. No matter how much I seemed to be prepared I was far from it. I don"t even know where to begin and if I did I know I wouldn't know where to end. It's like my whole body, mind and soul are a fog, one that even mother nature is unable to lift. At least I am able to tell my Nooker Bean my thoughts right now and that is all tjhat matters for me at this moment in time. I thought I was more ready to talk about it but I guess I'm not. I swear I literally felt my heart shrink the moment he took his final breath, and it has yet to return to it's normal size, not even close. This is much harder than I ever expected it to be, much, mguch, much harder. I do know though, that he was the best companion anyone could ever ask for. He was certainly loved by everyone he met. I am so glad I got to share close to 16 long years with him, I was for certainly blessed that he chose me as his lifelong companion.
Rest in Peace my sweet Nooker Bean. I'm sure you'r up there running like a wild man in the green fields & woods. Meeting up with your many critter pals including your sister Kessa, your ferret friends, Banshee, Annie, Chaos & Biggie, all those ratkins you used to terrorize (please be nice to them lol) and so many other beloved pals. And not to mention all of our human friends & relatives. Grandma is waiting for you, you'r the oinly dog she's ever been fond of, and Gramps, I am sure he will be spoiling you with many long walks in the woods, lots of treats & plenty of pats. Please enjoy being happy, healthy & whole again, god knows you certainly deserve it. I promise you, we will meet again someday. I love you with all my heart my dearest best friend Nooker bean.
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