My heart goes out to you and I am deeply touched by the love you have for Buddy. This is such a difficult time for you and I wish that I could take it away.

Cry.......yes, cry until you can't cry anymore. I have been there and I know the depth of your pain.

I am glad that you came here to post..............you have come to the exact forum with members that fully understand the circumstances and will be here for you.

I am so very sorry!