Thanks Slick your words are very comforting, I did feel embarrassed, it was like I was looking for sympathy, I just felt I had no-one I wanted to confide this to, and even though I am talking about it here, I can cruise around PT and answer other threads which help keep my mind off my troubles.

I am really such a private person in real life, my privacy is sacred to me, I suprise myself when I share so much here, but i guess its because its behind closed doors so to speak.

Thanks again for cheering me up, you a very special person.!!!!