We really do understand your pain here. I had a 9 year old Shih Tzu named Angie that I considered to be my sister and my best friend. Sadly she died on June 10, 2003 of IMHA (a blood disease). Angie had blood transfusions and tons of tests run. She was diagnosed and died within a few days and it was really hard because she was completely fine until three days before she died and we still don't know what caused it. My family was sick about Angie's death. My dad even missed work for three days. I still miss her like crazy and when I pray at night I talk to her. She is buried in my yard and when I leave for work I blow her kisses. Trust me, we truly understand your pain and nothing seems weird to us when it comes to loving pets.