Oh Avajoy, I'm SO sorry! I know how difficult a decision it is. If only they could tell you what to do.

You just have to do what is in Lily's best interest. I've had to send 2 cats to the RB. Casey (RB, 2002) and Marina Mar (RB, 2001). I miss them SO much. But you never get over losing them, you just get used to them not being there.

Do what is in your heart. I know it will be what is best. Give Lily a kiss for me and tell her to kiss Casey and Marina Mar.

Hang in there!

(((hugs))))