Jen. everything I have read on this forum about you leads me to believe that you are a fantastic and truly wonderful person for caring the way you do, and you care so much because you love so much. Until my Gi got sick I never had any idea how hard it is to look after sick animals. All we can do most of the time is guess how they feel and they can hide illness well at times too. Please don't feel bad - you have nothing to feel bad about. Every day since Gigi died I have lit a candle for her. I have one burning now and also one for my friends cat Billy Bandit who died last New Years Eve. I shall now light one for all the other animals who are at RB and one for all the animals who never had anyone to love them and look after them. I shall also light a special one for Timmy and all the other sick animals in the world.