They don't have official names yet but I call them alll by temporary names until I decide for sure. I called this one Shadow because he was ALWAYS right there with me. When all the kittens would play, he'd just be purring away on my lap or neck I was so bonded to him. I never noticed him acting different other than he didn't want to play, just be held. Everyone is telling me it was probably something heart related or genetic, but I think they are only telling me that so I won't think its my fault (which I do) I don't know what I did wrong but I think I must've done something. I'm so sad and I can't stop crying. I don't know how to pull myself together.

I've been so bad at taking pictures lately because I've just been so busy trying to take care of all the fosters. I feel awful I don't have recent pics of him. I'll try to get some of the others when I feel better