When I first read this post, the first words out of my mouth were, oh, no. Pepper, I know that this is a very difficult time for you but you must remember that you did everything possible for dear, sweet Bourbon. He knows that and he'll always love you for that. He's looking over you now saying thanks. I am sending you a hug and some strength, Pepper. Take care of yourself and please come back. This group is a wonderful place for support.