Thanks everyone. Yes, I'm doing much better. It took some time to adjust to him being gone. I still haven't completely accepted him being gone, don't think I ever will, but at least I'm not depressed. I miss him like crazy and it's little things that remind me of him. My friend said he was bringing his girlfriend to the movies yesterday. Made me miss Joey just remembering all the times we would go. I can't remember when the was the last time we did something so mundane as go to the movies. Seems like so long ago, but it'll only be a month since he's been gone on Wednesday.

He called me tonight to tell me he's getting another 48 hours of liberty this weekend and 96 hours liberty for Easter if they're still in the states then. I asked if he'd like for me to come, but surprisingly or not so surprising really, he said that no, it would be too hard to say goodbye all over again. He said it was so hard to day goodbye to me this last time. Which sort of surprised me because I thought he handled it soo much better than I did. geez men and their abilty to not show any emotion. anywhoo, we're still talking about whether or not I'll come visit again.

Good news is that he may not go to the middle east after all. He may go to another base in another country to take over for active duty troops gone there or he may be deactivated. No one is sure of any thing right now. He said not to get my hopes up, he'll probably be active duty for the next year, but at least I don't think he'll be in too much danger where ever he goes. *crosses fingers and prays*

Another bit of good news...we've decided that October 2005 is when we're going to get married. I've been looking at tons of ivitations and catalogs of dresses and tons of other wedding stuff. I really can't plan anything yet because I really don't know when he's coming back...that month is not set in stone...but I can pick out just about everything I want so all I have to do is book and order everything when the time comes.

Thanks everyone for your support.