Cats are wonderful therapy,let them help you to heart your broken heart, and don't worry about crying, you need to let it all out,.thinking of you , and hoping in time you will feel a little better, you will always have a hard time with the decision you have made,but as time goes on you will come to realise you really had little choice,you are only human and if you feel you did everything you possibly could ,then you must try to forgive yourself,.again GIANT GENTLE HUGS from across the seas. TAKE CARE.