I'm a failure as a cat owner

[krazyaboutkatz]

I'm so sorry to hear that it's come to this. I know how frustating it must be when you've tried everything and nothing seems to work. Lots of prayers and hugs are being sent your way. Please take care.

[moosmom]

Catlady711,

I've been in your shoes. Took a cat in who was inappropriately pooping, from a former PTer. Once they dropped her off, I never heard from them again. To whom it may concern...YOU'RE WELCOME!!! She did good for a while, but continued her pooping. I rehomed her to the UP of Michigan. My friend's son, a dairy farmer, adopted her and she became a barn kitty (heated barn, endless food and lots of love and freedom) along with Lil E. Both, I am happy to say, are doing very well!!! They sleep together in the loft of the heated barn with the chickens!

While I have some reservations about the "last resort", if you've tried everything, ruled out anything and gave it your all, I guess it's for the best. My gut feeling is there is more to this story.

RIP sweet girl. You were loved very much.

[smokey the elder]

I'm so sorry you have to do this.

[Catlady711]

I thank you all for the thoughts & prayers.

My heart is torn apart, my tears just keep falling. I took those kittens in back in 2006 because they would have died if I didn't. People around me are reminding me to think of the fact that Sabrina wouldn't have made it to be 4 weeks old if I hadn't taken her in and she had 4 1/2 years that she never would have had otherwise. But it doesn't make me feel any better. I feel like a failure, I feel like an awful cat owner. I've lost my confidence in myself. I will do my best by my remaining kitties that I love dearly too, but I just can't see myself ever getting another pet again after this experience.

When I take a cat in my intention is to only have to make this decision if they are old or very sick. But living your entire life in a cage with no freedom isn't much of a life. Not being able to enjoy the things a kitty should enjoy; watching birds, stretching out in a sunbeam, having room to run around when you want to, just isn't a life at all. Especially when she can hear the other kitties running around, she could remember doing all the things they were getting to do and it would make her pace and cry in that cage. It was heartbreaking to listen to, to see her wanting to be free. And as much as it's breaking my heart, she is free now. She can run all over with Dusty at the Rainbow Bridge, lay in sunbeams, and watch birds again. I stayed with her when she went to sleep, petted her, and cried while asking her to forgive me. I hope she can forgive me. I've done the best I could do for her and I tried hard for her. When my time comes, I hope she runs up to greet me in forgiveness, but I wouldn't blame her if she didn't. I picked up her ashes yesterday and I can't look at them without feeling worthless inside.

I can't type anymore through the tears right now.

[MoonandBean]

I truly believe that any cat or dog that gets to live it's life as part of a family is truly blessed and that she will not only run to greet you but she will thank you for giving her the best life that you could...and a peaceful, dignified journey to the bridge. Don't beat yourself up...try to focus on all the GOOD you did for her and all the other cats in your life

[moosmom]

What MoonandBean said! Don't beat yourself up. She had a good life with you.

[catfamily]

i'm so sorry for your loss on your kitty.this is very very sad.
i know how hard this must be on you.
i wish i didn't see the pictures
it's the way it had to be.it's very hard to find a cat a great home that pees
all over the place for just behavioral problems.
sometimes a home with no other pets or noises may be the only solution.
but,who wants to go door to door all over the USA and see if they have other pets or if they are a noisy home....lol
(i'm trying to help you crack a smile).
but,even that is only a pot luck thing...they still may pee everywhere.
plus,someone else may hurt the cat for peeing.
the guilt of not knowing is just as bad.
i hope you can come to terms knowing that you did what you had to do.
it's hard but it had to be done.
try not to be so hard on yourself (i know,shush....lol,easier said,right?)
i'm sure most people will agree with what you did.
be well.
we love you and i'm going to say a prayer for her and one also
for you