Thai was a beautiful cat with penetrating eyes and sounds as if he was smart, playful, and loving. I am so sorry for your loss... been there, done that. It is terrible, especially at first, but in time hopefully you will be able to remember him and not be filled with sadness. When I lost my first housecat, a Siamese in 1985, I was so sad but as time went on I got better. I now remember him and smile at some of the things he used to do. After he died I told myself he was no longer in pain and that helped me to cope. I got a puppy after my first housecat died and many years later I got another cat (Luke below). Perhaps you could think about getting another cat or kitten or maybe a puppy NOT to replace Thai but to give you and Saturn a companion. Again, I am sorry for your loss. Kay in NC