Thanks, it hit me hard last night when someone asked about her.
I couldn't stop crying and hyperventalating.

please never doubt they are both looking down on you
I never do, right after their passing while my family is crying I picture them in the room, behind us or licking our faces and looking at us wondering why were crying when they are right there. I know they are still their to catch the tears and watch over me but it's hard when you can't actually see them.