okay.. physical therapy didn't go well. to try again - we couldn't really do anything since because of some serve swellings. only took five steps and they wanted me to stop for now. totally stuck here. at this stage.. I really need try to get up. going nuts.. having heramonia (sp?) doesn't really help.

delilah! I have a walker now.. a luxury one. either you can switch it to a roller or no wheelers. automatically. NO wheelers for me, as am still a bit wobbly. but works pretty good for me when I need to potty next to me so I can rest my heel on it while I go - to prevent more pressure pain. they didn't recommend cane and I like my crutches, I don't know how but I seem to be more steady with them. now everytime I look at it, terry pops into my mind.

catsnclay, I'd like to make this really short, thank you for your post.. I appreciate knowing the different perspective now. it wasn't really a long before this thread started because it was a big thing - I shared out my personal information I'd never give over the internet and then last thing I got was yellings for "making things harder".. especially for the car accident I got in few weeks ago. and the words from others what you had considered of me. had you said one sentence out of what you posted, PMed me, I might would have thought differently.

I understand "everything happens for a reason" but I wish you'd give me a second chance.. everything doesn't always work at first, and was looking forward to do the same plus, it'd help us a lot. I even had my whiskers ready for you, as I remember you collect them. but you're right, it wasn't meant to be..

yes catty, I will look for it, can't wait to. it was my idea by the way, as I requested for them. thank you for the well wishes and thoughts everyone.. I just wish so badly and want to get out of here.

all traumatized.