Soo Looking Furrward to Surgery!! [GOING Home..]

[sandragonfly]

I have had this big grin on my face seeing someone "spoke" in my language on pet talk!! HI GINA! so neat to see that.. gee, I hope the doctor still knows I could be still in pain with this grin on! (oh and, can't read your .doc attachment on this browser, will do so later when can later).

sorry about yesterday.. yesterday was absolute the lousy, awful and worst day EVER had since I was here. (don't you believe no news means good news anymore, do you..?) they took me off morphines ... by some miscommunications of authorizations. I pleged, begged and cried to sleep for some - I need my morphine every three or so hours to keep pain away but yesterday, the nurse I had also was sooo not-so-nice. then all of sudden I passed out (slowly stopped breathing) after sweating for 8 hours - fever have went up back to 104 something, they took me back to where I first was here, emergency room.. god, the nurse.. was so ingorant. thinking I was just a crying patient. and just mute..

now I'm back onto the same floor, but different recovery room on the opposite side. I was suppose to be upstairs yesterday into long-term care room - higher, which always means a better coverage but luckly since I'm moved back into a different room closer to and with bigger window, current signal works pretty good! I still miss my last window, it has a cute crooked tree to look at. now all I see are the next-door walls..

(to be continued ..)

[Catty1]

Gina - hope you see your photo thread....Karen's idea!

[sandragonfly]

okay.. physical therapy didn't go well. to try again - we couldn't really do anything since because of some serve swellings. only took five steps and they wanted me to stop for now. totally stuck here. at this stage.. I really need try to get up. going nuts.. having heramonia (sp?) doesn't really help.

delilah! I have a walker now.. a luxury one. either you can switch it to a roller or no wheelers. automatically. NO wheelers for me, as am still a bit wobbly. but works pretty good for me when I need to potty next to me so I can rest my heel on it while I go - to prevent more pressure pain. they didn't recommend cane and I like my crutches, I don't know how but I seem to be more steady with them. now everytime I look at it, terry pops into my mind.

catsnclay, I'd like to make this really short, thank you for your post.. I appreciate knowing the different perspective now. it wasn't really a long before this thread started because it was a big thing - I shared out my personal information I'd never give over the internet and then last thing I got was yellings for "making things harder".. especially for the car accident I got in few weeks ago. and the words from others what you had considered of me. had you said one sentence out of what you posted, PMed me, I might would have thought differently.

I understand "everything happens for a reason" but I wish you'd give me a second chance.. everything doesn't always work at first, and was looking forward to do the same plus, it'd help us a lot. I even had my whiskers ready for you, as I remember you collect them. but you're right, it wasn't meant to be..

yes catty, I will look for it, can't wait to. it was my idea by the way, as I requested for them. thank you for the well wishes and thoughts everyone.. I just wish so badly and want to get out of here.

all traumatized.

[Catty1]

Yes, I recall now, I reread the post and Karen has said you requested it!

I hope you have a good pain-free sleep tonight - and that can make all the difference for physio tomorrow.

(gentle) HUGS!

[sandragonfly]

omg.. I spelled it really wrong.

hematoma - (hematoma) is what I'm trying to say.

and the doctor said there's nothing we can do about it, just to let it heal, reduce itself .. takes forever!! and that physical therapist needs to stop coming back until a week or so later.

just had my temperature taken, and it just won't go a frigging bit down! so frustrating.. makes me not so hungry and I got in trouble for not eating.

[Catty1]

Hematoma....big blood blister...and yeah, they do reabsorb, but it takes time.

Gina, after my surgery I had NO appetite for a long time. I started thinking of food as 'medicine'. Taking it would help me get better.

I had no appetite, but ate my food anyway. You might try that.

Better times are soon!

[shais_mom]

aaaahhh
HEMATOMA
I thought you mean PNEUMONIA....
especially with a fever.
now I'm on the same page -
yep that's what Anna has been battling with since Bon bit her....
takes for ever!

[sandragonfly]

yeah.. the other day when I called karen, asked her if she remembered seeing ann's pictures and all that - is the exactly same I am having right now.. infinity undescriptive pain.

catty, food here are godly gross .. all moistured, mashed and soggy. even last time only the smell had me throw up! my body is so, so supersensitive and different from many - I can't eat same things over again in a short amount of time either.. I get of sick of food easily, really easily - healthly or not.

would you want to order me a pizza again, the mayor?

[Karen]

Good to see you have coverage and are able to read and post! Congratularions on that. I am sorry yesterday was so completely awful. That walker sounds really neat!

I had to use a walker when I had my brain surgery 11 years ago, and the Physical Therapist said, "You do very well with that, for such a young person," so I had to explain "I had a lot - a LOT - of elderly relatives when I was a kid, so I've seen them used my whole life and must have absorbed some technique along the way!"