What made me cry was reading all of your posts. I am so sorry to everyone that is feeling pain and I wish I could take it away from all of you. My heart just aches reading the words of everyone that is sad.

I'm just stressed. I cry nearly every other day, if not every day. I am like Sara where if I am alone, I sit and think, and I think about the things that are going wrong and it ends up ruining me and I start to cry. Lately it's just ths little things setting me off. I feel like my dad is spending more of his time and effort on his girlfriend than he is on us kids. That just breaks my heart simply because he said that he would never put anyone before us and he just isn't like that, you know? My daddy has always been my lifeline and now we don't talk as much as we used to.

Another thing is I just have so much on my plate. I am in the pit orchestra fors the Cats production and we have 7 shows over the next 4 days. I just need time to myself. I'm either at practice, a show, or work. I don't ever stop moving and a lot of the time I get home and crash and just cry because I stop and think about things, mostly my friends. Most of you know we've been having problems. They've stepped into the drinking scene and have completely left me in the dust without looking back. Conversation seems forced between us, and this scares me to death because for the longest time, they were all I had, and now they act like I'm nothing. I'm a very sensitive person and knowing that they don't care anymore breaks my heart, everyday. And everyday it just gets more obvious. It hurts me so bad.

Add to that, there's one person that I miss more than anything, and I can't see him. It's been a hard few weeks.

Good luck everyone. *hugs* Things can only look up, right?