Liz,
I feel I have to say something, but don't know exactly what. I grieve for our Keisha still and it's been over a year now. It just seems like she should be here, like it's not real that she's gone, even after all this time. I know I have 3 dogs that I love and love me, but it's not the same. I can say I feel your pain, but I'm sure I don't know exactly how you feel, each of us feel different. But if it's anything like I felt when Keisha died, you feel your world has caved in and nothing will ever be the same again.
There will be something to help fill that void you have in you, we don't know when it will come, or what form it will come in, but it will, I just know it.
Take care of yourself and try to remember the good times you had together, hold onto them.

Sincerley, Anna