Buckner, I've not had to deal with a great deal of depression, but I am very familiar with its evil cousin, anxiety, and yes, I am prone to medicate myself with food. You have accomplished so much with the weight loss, I'd hate to see you have to start all over again. That too would be depressing.

It seems you have an extremely difficult work schedule. I wonder if that isn't contributing to your problem. What type of work do you do? If you are consuming so very few calories and still gaining weight, I think you need to discuss this with your doctor. Have you tried writing down everything you are eating to see if in fact there are more calories than you are aware of?

Give your medication a chance to kick in. Please don't get discouraged. You are one of our heros and you need support, perhaps more than you can get in an on line situation. (((HUGS))) from me too.