Bob, I am so sorry for the loss of your dear boy and the intense pain you are feeling. Death is never an easy thing to deal with, no matter if the loss is human or pet.

Last year I lost my first dog Oreo, a dog I had since I was 14, and then my younger brother, Rob, with in about 2 months time. It was not an easy thing to get through, and as the 1st anniverisary of Oreo's passing was last month, and the 1st Anniversy of my brother's death nears, it is still not easy. I still cry, and still hurt. I would give anything to have my "little" brother back.

What has gotten my family through this time is each other. Diane and Sis need you now, more then ever. You need to be strong for them, and they will help be strong for you.

I also encourage you to look for a pet loss support group. Our humane society has one, as do many others in the area. I hope you can find the same in Arizona. There are also on-line support groups, people that understand it is not "just a dog" you have lost.