Well she seemed more irritated this morning so I took her to the humane society so she could be checked by a vet the kittens were just barely hanging on I think I cried all the way to the hospital and all the way home I did tell them that if something should happen to the babies that I wouldn't mind if she came here to be spoiled rotten and fattened up it still didn't make me feel any better though. I feel like such a failure. I lost two of the babies probely because of hand feeding and I have managed to take all of the blame for everything yet my husband said they really didn't give you very good odds the mother was malnutritioned and really ill. I really did get a bond with her though. She was a really honey. I don't know girls, I am don't know if I am cut out for this stuff I have a hard time getting a thick skin. I am going to miss momma kitty. I might go and vist her next week if she is doing better?? I just hope and pray some momma kitty will take those babies in. Real momma just didn't have the instinct to help the babies along. The one kitten must have not gone to the bathroom at all because when I barley brush its rear it just unloaded so I don't think she knew what to do?? She was really young about the same age as my youngest kitty Chloe. I can't imagine that little maniac with kittens she has so much growing up to do? Thanks for everything I am still thinking about what I will do.