One thing is for sure Cagneydog. We definitely want to hear what you have to say. Don't ever think we here at PT don't care. I care a great deal about you and everything you're going through. You've made the right move in letting everyone know your feelings. Keeping it inside would be nothing but damaging to you and your well being. Feel free to come here and let it all out. Growing up is such a hard thing to do. Confusion is so normal. Hormones are definitely running rampant and with all the every day garbage we have to put up with, nothing is easy. I'll never forget how hard it was to be young. It was a constant struggle. I would seriously think about seeing a doctor as soon as you can. There are so many great medications on the market today that we didn't have years ago when I was in school. There are things that help coping with social interaction etc. I think you'll be very pleased and feel so much better if you make an appt. now. Don't wait too long. Remember what I've told you before...don't let anyone make you feel inferior. You're as good as anyone and everyone out there. No one is better than you! Please call the doctor and keep us updated on a regular basis.
(((((HUGS))))) Terry p.s. As you get older all these things will become minimal. Believe me-it does get better with age